Millennium (TV Series)

The Wild and the Innocent (1997)

Heather McComb: Maddie Haskell

Quotes 

• Maddie Haskell : I was at church Easter Sunday, and the minister was talking about the mystery of faith, and how easy it is to doubt what you can't prove, and how none of us saw the miracle at the Lord's tomb that day, all we had to do was to believe in it hard enough, and it would be true. And that's what faith was. He said that we can't be weak, that we can't dismiss the miracle, that we have to be strong enough to make mysteries real.

• Maddie Haskell : Sometimes, I feel time slip like a heartbeat, dear Angel... And I wonder if you feel it too, across the distance. To have known you for so brief a time... to live with the possibility that we shall never meet again.

• Maddie Haskell : If you are indeed lost to me... it is my Lord's prayer that you are not lost to Him, dear Angel... that you walk in the light... that you forgive... and that you never have to know the truth.

• Maddie Haskell : Dear Angel, I was thinkin' today of Momma. How she had the sofest, sweetest voice you ever heard... like a willow in a breeze. In church, when she sang, people standin' around her would hush just to get a better listen. I can't help thinkin' how sad all this would have made her. She never liked Bobby much... And, for whatever reason, I fell in love with him. he paid attention to me... made me feel pretty... I saw him sittin' on the hood of his Firebird late one summer night in high school. He was one of those types of people who acted fearless... like he had a secret. I never had secrets. Momma had a hard life. Guess I'm kinda glad you weren't around 2 see her hurt like she did. I'm not sayin' this like it's an excuse for anything that happened. Just that, well... I never wanted to be one of those people that gets to used to bein' sad. That must sound funny comin' from me. Love, Maddie

• Maddie Haskell : Dear Angel, I never told you about the night you left. I'd come out for groceries and when I came back home you were gone. I was terrified. I was lost. I couldn't get a straight answer out of anybody. I must have driven for hours looking for you... but there was no sign. I got tired and I kinda gave up. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I gave up on you that night. Please forgive me.

• Maddie Haskell : Dear Angel, It's Christmas Eve. I remember when I was ten years old and caught Momma putting presents under the tree. Broke my heart. Believing in Santa was the last bit of little kid mystery left in the world. I'm looking up at the dark winter sky right now wishing that weren't true. Wishing that old guy in the red suit would bring you home. I miss you so much. I gotta go. He hates it when I write to you, and I can hear him comin' up the stairs.

• Maddie Haskell : I've never been clear on why they call it "makin' love". Every time I let Bobby have me... it felt more like... like makin' peace. You know, killin' - killin' time. A few precious minutes to myself. I found out my real dad had hit my mom a couple of times. Then she took up with Jim and he just hit her more often. I can't stop blamin' myself for what happened to my mom. What she found out what Jim had done to me... she just... she couldn't live with it. I know I'm guilty for letting what happened happen but if I didn't stay in the car, I knew I'd never see Angel again.